Forever Confused... and easily forgotten...

nothing is going right for me but im happy =D i don’t care what is goin on regardless of women and what not. there are a couple that i am infatuated with and have a crush on but one stands out that nothing will happen with but just the fact that something happened with my long time school crush is a slight dream come true. if i can make it for a week or a year longer i will take it but other5 than that i ahev feelings but wont let them take over my judgement my thoughts. i dont know what im on about but it kinda makes sence to me. kiss hug yeah, cuddle buddie hopefully, love for a friend definately. want for something more, obvious. chance, very minimal. respect and want to be with someone for what they are and how much i feel for her, very evident. chance that i will hear from her, not high. i wanted something special but now i just want something. anything. therr is alot more i have to say but cant think in my state. peace and much love =)