I feel really bad. i keep lying to you that im fine and all ok bout what happened and im over it but in truth, im not. i still cant stop thinking bout us and what never was. im not as happy as i say i am. beneath the big smile is a fair amount of hurt and disappointment. i feel as though you would be better off and feel less guilty if you think im ok with everything. the last thing i want is for you to feel down. your a beautiful person that doesnt need anything else to worry about.